Run & Hide or Lean In?
Vulnerability Alert: This morning I was experiencing overwhelm which then commonly turns to irritability. I felt like my attention was urgently needed in 12 different places. I was spinning out and not really getting anything done. Then I had an appointment with my business coach that, of course, I felt like I was too busy to show up for. But following through with my word is something that is very important to me. So I showed up and talked about what was going on.
I settled into my chair and as I began to tell my story, I started to feel more grounded (less spinning.) I had to slow down and become present, and allow my spirit to settle back into my body, to share the truth about what was going on. That's when the feelings surfaced! I was feeling really bad about wasting someone's time because I had accidentally double booked myself. This yucky feeling was informing me that I had compromised my values. (The one about following through with my word.) I am also moving and have been feeling unsupported. And then also trying to run a business and generate income for this house that I just bought! That's where the 'urgency' energy comes in and amplifies the overwhelm.
I'm sharing these feelings with my listener, and I had the realization that me spinning out was actually avoiding the pain. The pain of feeling unsupported, and having had compromised my values. I'll admit that I probably would've continued spinning and trying to frantically get things done, all the while my feelings continue building. This scheduled meeting allowed me to have a 'witness' to first get honest with, feel the feelings, and then release them! Woah! This felt like a hugh "aha" moment and a perfect opportunity to share my process of going from overwhelm/pain avoidance/ungrounded to grounded and rebalanced by moving through those feelings. As well as gathering the information that those feelings had for me around what was underneath like feeling unsupported and behavior that was misaligned with my values.
Moral of the Story: Getting grounded brings one back to the present moment, allows feelings to surface, information is extracted from those feelings, and then the energy of those feelings released from one's body and energetic space. It can be difficult to do this for yourself by yourself, so find a trusted friend/mentor who can hold space (listen non-judgmentally) for this process.